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inside out,upside down twisting beside myself
unexpected smile x
Created on 2008-09-01 18:11:10 (#16494232), last updated 2009-12-05
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Basic Info| Name: | hartinaheadlock |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 1988-10-19 |
| Location: | United Kingdom |
Bioi've done this so many times i don't quite know how to begin them now...
all i know is that i left a place in my head a few months ago, a place that told me that to be skinny is better, that to cut myself into scraps would make me feel better and that the darkness was safes. I left that place months ago. I have been out of councelling for 3 months and i'm scared but i know i'm going back to that place in my head again, it was safe for me. This is my journey back. I don't want to go back, believe me, it took 21/2 years of coucelling every week to get me out but i don't feel sure of anything anymore, my relationship with my girlfriend is putting me through my paces, i've just moved 400miles away from where i grew up and have lived my whole life up until now and i have no friends, down here or back home, just my girlfriend. I need something to cling onto, to suck me back into and unfortunaltey all i can see is this. and so i'm coming back, to that place in my head. hopefully someday soon i will leave it behind again, for good this time. just not now x
all i know is that i left a place in my head a few months ago, a place that told me that to be skinny is better, that to cut myself into scraps would make me feel better and that the darkness was safes. I left that place months ago. I have been out of councelling for 3 months and i'm scared but i know i'm going back to that place in my head again, it was safe for me. This is my journey back. I don't want to go back, believe me, it took 21/2 years of coucelling every week to get me out but i don't feel sure of anything anymore, my relationship with my girlfriend is putting me through my paces, i've just moved 400miles away from where i grew up and have lived my whole life up until now and i have no friends, down here or back home, just my girlfriend. I need something to cling onto, to suck me back into and unfortunaltey all i can see is this. and so i'm coming back, to that place in my head. hopefully someday soon i will leave it behind again, for good this time. just not now x
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